Why can't those who find love explore it without consequences?
Why do those no longer in lov stay together for the sake of pain?
When I feel love my heart aches,
My chest pounds & my throat closes.
I think back on images of our days past.
Like a rolodex of a life in images together- yet completely apart.
The first time you touched just my hand, I trembled from the inside out.
Like a drug, I wanted more.
More little touches, more smiles, more memories.
Like living in a parallel universe I find myself visualizing us together.
I ran to you for hugs & craved your attention- even small glances.
You moved the Earth for me.
You healed my troubled heart.
All without knowing you had done so.
And when I'm in your arms
I feld your heart so close to mine.
It provides a fearlessness inside.
I feel safe, protected and cared for.
Like kindred souls, I wish could connect.
Yet circumstances of responsibility, obligations and the unknown tend to set us backwards.
I'm proud of your choices,
I'm proud of your strength to see them.
I just wish this didn't give me a sense of rejection
-mainly because I lust after you.
The universe must have a plan.
You seem to be in better touch with the cosmic forces.
I hope the "Stars Align" for us- even just for a moment to give the cosmos & the ultimate connections a chance to explore freely, without consequence, without guilt- only with love.
I long to kiss your mouth,
I long to hold you close,
its like a trembling heart of a teenage girl.
Am I an insecure, vulnerable girl who desires for love and has found it?
It just isn't hers to have- Yet..
I shouldn't even touch this love as it is a like a drug- It makes me high & then falls to an ultimate low.
What am I to do?
I hate loving this hard....
Loving where your body physically makes you tremble.
You say "If its in the stars, it will happen."
Well I feel a cosmic shift coming.
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