Friday, September 17, 2010

Once in a lifetime you may find a soulmate- if you are lucky.
What if you thought you found it- then met "The one."
I have done just that!
It's sad actually. Knowing he is out there, yet knowing you cannot have him
I've found myself listening to the same song over and over because it makes me "feel."
Feel like I do when he is in my life, in my arms.
How is it possible to love this hard, this much and know it will go nowhere.
Why would God punish us with this meeting.
He has brought the positive light in my life over the past years.
I have held onto the feeling he gives me.
I have tried to forget him
I have deleted his number from my phone.
I have erased his physical memory in photos- yet he still shows up in my dreams.
With distance and time between us, our connection remains so tight.
I have never felt this before.
It is the feeling you imagine as a teen.
Its the passion in which you want to live you life with.
Its insane to me how much I care
It actually hurts to think about him.
I feel sick. I want to purge!
I feel him touch me. I imagine his energy and I shiver.
The world stands still when he is around
He is my perfection
He is my reflection
He is my Heart
He is my Soull
I love his so much
I just can't let go.
I want to be with him
I wish life would be fair and allow it to be a reality.
Sometimes I wish I had never met him as I wouldn't know what I was missing.
I don't look at anyone else the same.
I don't think of anyone like I do him.
It's this insane feeling. Like we were born to meet and fall in love- yet not.
His smile is pure joy
His soul shines through his eyes
His heart is insurmountable
I care so much for him
I wish it was a different universe where we could be together
Maybe in another  lifetime.
I have tried to advance this relationship- to no avail
One may question my ridiculous dedication to a man who doesn't love me the same- or does he?
I can't know for sure
He expresses love
he shows his heart to me
He shares his words with me
Our dreams collide together.
Are we star-crossed lovers?
I think of him all day everyday.
I cannot do anything without him on my mind.
The moment I met him, I fell in love.
So cliche to say it was love at first sight- I didn't believe in that fairytale before.
Must I suffer so?
Why do I continue this unrequited situation?
I do it because if even for a moment there is a chance for us, I want to explore it.
I feel like I've waited a lifetime to meet him.
I wish I for forecast the future
as it is so unclear.
Mixed signals and miscommunications
I feel strangely connected. Strangely shared.
I'm open to meeting and loving others, but no one is you!

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